New Job Scaries
I've just started a new software engineer job. For context, I've just come from why first dev where I was there for over 6 years. It's a relatively big change because the new company is very big, with lots of teams and totally different architecture, spread across different countries, and lots to get your head around. Coming from the previous job where there were about 10 devs and a few monolith apps!
It's got to be normal when starting any job, but I'm not enjoying it so far. I think because I can't contribute much, or I'm having to ask lots of questions to find anything out - granted some of which is domain knowledge, but it plays on my mind that I should know some of it already, or have the brains to figure it out for myself. And where there are sways of time where I'm literally not doing anything because I'm having to wait for an answer. I feel bad because I don't know what I can be doing in that time.
Granted I'm only coming up to 3 weeks of being here, but I feel like I have to justify my existence a bit. This is probably a pretty universal experience for anyone starting any job getting to grips with things, but I do feel as though I've got a mountain ahead of me to climb. I probably felt a little bit like this in the first job, but there was less pressure because I was literally just out of school and there wasn't a tonne of expectation.
Anyway, we'll see how we go. I really just need to tell myself that as long as I learn a bit more everyday, then it's all good. If I get to 6 months and genuinely don't like the job, then meh, it's not the end of the world - we move.